So I was driving my car, as usual my left hand was gripping the steering wheel. I turned on the AC in the car, and cold air was flowing out from the vent caressing the back of my fingers. You were sitting in the passenger seat, yes indeed you were my passenger today, I was the driver, and I was taking you home.

I turned the music down, however in this silence the music still managed to trickle out from the speakers. It was low but audible. It was a love song, and you were sobbing for your love. I felt a bit uneasy, for having you in my car crying. Usually I lose my cool when I have crying girl with me.

It was not a surprise to me that you argued with him again, that you felt frustration mixed with anger and sadness. The problem between you and him is already an old story, so old that I don't bother to put myself in your shoes anymore. However this is really your first time crying in front me, showing me your weakness and your vulnerability. After all I guess you are just a girl, a girl longing for a true love.

Sarcasm, was the word popped in my mind. In the pursuit of a true love, often we end up with the wrong ones, and we only know that they are the wrong ones after we have committed ourselves completely. Such realization at such stage only brings us misery and suffering, thus the pursuit of love turns into a pursuit of misery and suffering. In the end we obtain nothing but a shower of tear to reflect our own images. We try to stare at it in order to have a good look and grasp, but the vision has already turn blurry.

So what is love? How am I supposed to love in this world where traditional values are tainted with materialism? Is true love possible? Is the perfect one still out there for us to seek? Or is everything just a fairy tale and I am still so stubborn to hold on to a heart of child? I have no answer, but only reason and thought ......

我想慢慢地走在路上，
路的兩邊都是青草。
暖風在臉上的吹拂，
使我可以飛到白雲上。
然後徐徐降落，徐徐
降落在死亡的乳房。
執筆揮毫畫出最美的鳥語花香，
於此我得到了永久的解放！

This is what I find in Dictionary.com about the word lost:

Lost

1. No longer in the possession, care, or control of someone or something; unable to be found or recovered.
2. No longer in existence; vanished or spent.
3. No longer known or practiced.
4. Beyond reach, communication, or influence.

Of course this is only one particular aspect of the meaning of this interesting word. As we all know the word also bears the meaning as disoriented and confused. But for now, for the sake of my discussion, let me just focus on the meaning I wrote above, specially the first sentence of the definitiojn.

Undeniably, lost is an adjective describing a state of being. However the definition never specify the aspect of time, how long does this state of being need to last in order to be qualify to be called lost? If I lose possession of something, either external objects or internal feelings, but I re-possess it after a period of time, then would this duration of time be described as lost? What if the time is exactly a second? Or the word lost is only appropriate to use if possession of the lost object can never be obtained again in one's lifetime? Thus time plays a crucial role in the definition of the word lost, at least to me.

Having these thoughts and questions in mind, thinking back on my life, on the last painful relationship I had, what have I lost? Have I really lost anything? Or I am just in the transitional state, in which eventually I will recover from the lost? I know since the break-up I am never the same, I see everything differently and in a sense I gained some insights about matters in life. But is that really a gain or a lost? I gained new insights but I lost the old me, or maybe plainly I lost me ...

So again I feel confused and don't know the cause of it.

I feel like staring at a certain object for a long period of time, and just let my mind go blank. STOP THINKING! Not everything can be digested with reasoning and logic. I have lost my faith, but if I never got my faith, how can I lose it?

I feel lonely, even though I have been hanging out with my roommate and my roommate's girlfriend the whole day today, nevertheless I feel lonely, missing something in my life. I know what it is, but there is nothing I can do about it. I've surrendered long ago. The struggle has set the ending tone, and last autumn's withered leaves have been swept away from my feet. I stand there, in the darkness of time, pale face and open palm, nothing but traces of memory, painful memory. I feel sad but no tears from my eyes, the well has dried, and no tenderness can soften my hardened heart.

讀完了《文明的創痛》后，想跟大家分享一下我所摘錄的一些句子：

疼痛不是最糟糕的處境，最糟糕的是對疼痛的麻木。

難道不是嗎？在現今社會裏生活的人基本上麻木的是大多數，少數尚未沒有麻木的人甚至還要力求麻木。其實這種變相的追求是一種有意的逃避。感覺到疼痛，那是因爲尚有同情心，尚有憐憫心，尚有“弱點”，所以人們要麻痹自己，讓自己變得無懈可擊。也有可能現在我們的生活真的太忙（盲）了，沒有閒工夫去感覺疼痛。我們要留更多的時間去爭取金錢，名望和地位。

我在認識你之前，曾是一位善感的詩人，多情的歌者。看到藍天，我會輕鬆；看到小草，我會感嘆生命的堅靭與渺小；看到大海，我會想到我對你的深情和我們的白頭到老。可是就在你走的那天，你不僅走出了我的生命，也帶走了我在自己生命世界裏所建立的一切。我失去的不只是你，還有我自己！如今我要重新學習疼痛！

每一次的放棄也意味著容納，每一次的回憶也意味著忘卻。

看似矛盾，其實人本身就是矛盾！

在我放棄你和放棄你我故事的同時，我也不得不容納那令我萎靡的失敗。你的柔情似水，可全從我的手指閒流失，我抓不住你一直向外奔的腳步。放棄了戀情，卻永遠將你容納在自己的心裏，可是那個你，只是歲月的剪影。

回憶不是爲了記憶，是爲了忘卻。那昔日的纏綿，舊時的甜言，怎能如此輕易的忘卻。也許你可以，但我不行， 因爲我始終沒有將心收回。所以我要繼續不斷的回憶，像一頭不斷反芻的老牛，直到我可以把一切消化。

When I come in to work this morning, I took a bit of time to catch up with the current events, specially the current situation in Iraq. So I browsed couple news sites: CNN and BBC. From my reading of several news articles, it seems to me that the situation is grave and chaotic. Flames of war and terror are burning in several major cities, and sounds of gun shots are reported constantly. Peace is nowhere to be seen and far from reach. I can imagine ordinary people are still suffering and still have not gotten their promised sense of security and a democratic country. All these promises are now like soap bubbles, shiny and pretty but do not resist the heat of flying bullets.

The place I used to live is a military town, because it is where the marine camp resides. My weekend job was being a teller at one of the local Payday Advance stores. These stores give advanced cash to customers, and later on their payday full amount plus interest is paid back to the store. I worked there for nearly over 2 years, and most of our customer consisted of marines. From what I've learned some stores only target marines. Usually they are young and inexperienced. Often they are like kids, party on the weekends and spend all their pay. They do not know how to take care their own financial situation. Many of them are only 19 or 20, but already carry a bagful of debts.

So when US officially declared war on Iraq, the first wave of marine sent to Iraq consisted of many young marines from our camp. On their departure, wives and their babies were gathered at the harbor to say goodbye, and some were saying farewell. Many did not return, and their debt remained unpaid. Many did not return, and their wives left alone and sobbing. Many did not return, and their babies became fatherless so young so early. Having dealt with these marines, I have to say watching them going to war at such young age is difficult, and when they do not return is simply heart-broken.

According to BBC, the death toll since "major combat over" on May 1 2003 is estimated to be at least 514. Confronting with this number, either you are pro or against war, you should remain silent. This is not merely a number, this is 514 young men that are no longer breathing, no longer living to see their newly-born babies. Total reported Iraqi civilian deaths, according to BBC, is approximately from 8,865 to 10,715. That's a big number! But when deaths are transformed into numbers, death seems to lose its weight, and readers simply glance over the numbers and go on with the next line.

I sincerely hope that the tumult and battle will soon be over, and that our leaders make wise and intelligent decisions and policies, so these people did not die in vain!

Something I got from my friend, and some of them really crack me up. So thought I might wanna spread the joy around.

1) "When I die, I want to die like my grandfather-who died peacefully in his sleep. Not screaming like all the passengers in his car!" -- Author Unknown

2) Advice for the day: If you have a lot of tension and you get a headache, do what it says on the aspirin bottle: "Take two aspirin" and "Keep away from children". -- Author Unknown

3) "Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar. -- Drew Carey

4) "Instead of getting married again, I'm going to find a woman I don't like and just give her a house," -- Lewis Grizzard

5) "The problem with the designated driver program, it's not a desirable job, but if you ever get sucked into doing it, have fun with it. At the end of the night, drop them off at the wrong house." -- Jeff Foxworthy

爲什麽至此我仍憂傷愁苦，
難道往事的秋葉蓋不住你的面孔？
還是我吃慣了你煮的蛋，做的烏冬？
我沒有力氣向前走，
未來如你對我的愛，好空洞！
可這空洞在我的心上，是如此沉重！

6) "See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time." -- Robin Williams

7) "If a woman has to choose between catching a fly ball and saving an infant's life, she will choose to save the infant's life without even considering if there is a man on base." -- Dave Barry

8) "What do people mean when they say the computer went down on them??" -- Marilyn Pittman

9) "Relationships are hard. It's like a full time job, and we should treat it like one. If your boyfriend or girlfriend wants to leave you, they should give you two weeks' notice. There should be severance pay and before they leave you, they should have to find you a temp." -- Bob Ettinger

10) "My Mom said she learned how to swim when someone took her out in the lake and threw her off the boat. I said, 'Mom, they weren't trying to teach you how to swim." -- Paula Poundstone

An recent article on BBC Chinese reported the recent "Only Child" policy change that took place in many major prosperous Chinese cities. According to the article, ShangHai now allow people to have a second child when they are in the second marriage, and they already have a child in their previous marriage. This was strictly prohibited before. In the past, divorced individuals are not allowed to have a second child when they get re-married, if they already had a child in their previous marriage. Also in recent years China has loosened "Only Child" policy by allowing families bounded by two "only child" to have two children instead of one.

For being the only child myself, I must say that the "Only Child" policy has a tremendous negative effect on child development, and the personality of these children when they grew up into adults. It is well known in Chinese parental society and among "only child" that these children suffer what we call "Only Child Syndrome". Due to the special environment during the childhood, these children tend to be more selfish, less sharing, very self-centered, inconsiderate of other, etc., when they turn into adults.

To be frank, I do suffer "Only Child Syndrome". I grew up alone, without sisters and brothers, so I tend to be a loner in many situation. In some situation I do not feel comfortable being in a group. For the same reason, I do have a hard time sharing my stuff with others, so often I need to learn to share. Although I realize these undesirable traits when I am an adult, but it take a great deal for me to change, and still I am making changes everyday.

So I have to say from child development's point of view, such policy change is good and beneficial to the future society.

11) A study in the Washington Post says that women have better verbal skills than men. I just want to say to the authors of that study: "Duh!!" -- Conan O'Brien

12) "Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant?? I'm halfway through my fish burger and I realize, Oh my God.... I could be eating a slow learner." -- Lynda Montgomery

13) "I think that's how Chicago got started. A bunch of people in New York said, 'Gee, I'm enjoying the crime and the poverty, but it just isn't cold enough. Let's go west." -- Richard Jeni

14) "If life were fair, Elvis would be alive and all the impersonators would be dead." -- Johnny Carson

15) "Sometimes I think war is God's way of teaching us geography." -- Paul Rodrigues

We are all looking for the half, the one person that completes us, that will make us into complete beings. I've been looking too, each day the search begins at sunrise and continues into my restless dreams. But recently I have realized something disturbing. In this seemingly endless and ongoing search, I've found nothing so far but in addition I've lost myself, the self that I used to hold closely and tightly since it is the very foundation of my search. Without the self, all searches are meaningless and in vain. The search of the half has transformed into a search for the half that will bring a light to the understanding of myself, for I lost the concept of the self, and blurred the vision of my understanding. So before I continue on my search I really need to find myself!

16) "My parents didn't want to move to Florida, but they turned sixty, and that's the law." -- Jerry Seinfeld

17) "Remember in elementary school, you were told that in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file line from smallest to tallest. What is the logic in that? What, do tall people burn slower?" -- Warren Hutcherson

18) "Bigamy is having one wife/husband too many. Monogamy is the same." -- Oscar Wilde

19) "Suppose you were an idiot... And suppose you were a member of Congress... But I repeat myself." -- Mark Twain

20) "Our bombs are smarter than the average high school student. At least they can find Afghanistan." -- A. Whitney Brown

拍拍我的背，
我會向前走，
哪怕是高山叢林，
深淵激流。
我會用我的赤腳征服，
我的汗水灌溉疏通。
在彩虹的底端，
橡樹的旁邊，
等待你的到來，
綻開的一笑，
那時永久的幸福！

可如今，
只有影子的對白，
孤獨者的煙癮，
和一首單薄的詩。

21) "Ah, yes, divorce... from the Latin word meaning to rip out a man's genitals through his wallet. -- Robin Williams

22) "Women complain about premenstrual syndrome, but I think of it as the only time of the month that I can be myself." -- Roseanne

23) "Women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place." -- Billy Crystal

24) "You can say any foolish thing to a dog, and the dog will give you a look that says, 'My God, you're right! I never would've thought of that!" -- Dave Barry

25) Do you know why they call it "PMS"? Because "Mad Cow Disease" was taken. -- Unknown, presumed deceased

-- The End --

I came across this news report on BBC today, and it really made me furious.

A baby milk scandal which has killed at least 13 infants in China appears to be widening. State television says infants who were fed fake formula have been treated for malnutrition in a second province. An investigation is under way, and police in Anhui province have already detained five wholesalers of fake baby milk, according to Xinhua news agency. Around 200 babies in Anhui alone were fed formula milk of little nutritional value, media reports said.

The recent rapid economical growth in China has caught the eyes of many foreigners. To many who are interested in China, "The Dragon" has finally woke up from its lengthy sleep, and put its footprint on the shiny road to prosperity. However it seems to me that under the sudden materialistic wash produced as a byproduct of this speedy economical growth, many people in China has revealed the darkest aspect of human nature. Under the temptation of money, people would do anything in order to get a handful of gold.

Doctors say the baby milk scandal is responsible for the worst malnourishment they have seen in 20 years. Local media in Fuyang printed pictures of one six-month-old baby boy who weighed less than he did at birth. They said some of the babies developed what doctors called "big head disease", where infants' heads appear abnormally large in comparison to their bodies.

Since the law-making process has fallen behind the economical growth, in many areas consumers in China are not protected and sellers are not lawfully restrainted. In such situations, personal moral standards should be serving as the ultimate guard of malicious deeds, and apparently it failed. Selling "fake milk" to infants, such act is murderous and ignorant. Any person with a clear conscience and strong moral standard would've not taken such action. So from this incident, we can peek into the origin of the problem. First, due to lack of corresponding law enforcement, individuals are "encouraged" to take risky actions to make a profit and believing that he/she will get away with it. Secondly people's moral standard and value are deteriorating in China, many moral values that used to be held closely are now abandoned.

Finally I have to say, it made me really sad to see such thing happens in China.

Now I am at my Photoshop class, sitting in front of a NEC 17" LCD monitor. It is Friday and honestly I am quite exhausted from 5 days of constant programming. I came in 10 minutes late today, because I was stuck at work and couldn't get off 5 o'clock sharp. On my way rushing to the class, the idea of ditching the class flashed in my mind several times, indeed I am tired and a class on Friday night that lasts until 9 p.m. seems to be so much time and work. However soon I convinced myself that such sacrifice is well worth and beneficial to myself and my own career. After all I am learning Photoshop, a program that I always dream of learning and mastering.

Before taking this class, I used to follow online Photoshop tutorials and messed around the program till 4 or 5 a.m. in the morning. I am truly addicted to Photoshop! I have been using Photoshop to produce my own wallpapers, and released them in various art and customization communities. So far I have had great enjoyment manipulating images, photos and creating eye-soothing wallpapers to use on my desktop. I hope in the future as my Photoshop skills get better I will be able to create more good quality wallpapers. Although this class is a bit basic to me, neverthless each class I still absorb and learn some new features of this powerful program. So overall the sacrifice I made is well worth.

Okay, break is over, I am going back to my class!

看了《走近名作家-中國名作家生活寫真》，我對多位之前我所敬仰的作家有了新的認識。正如主編凃光群所說的，在讀者賜給他們的光環下，他們也只是人，有血有肉有情感的人。而在更多的方面，他們比普通人活得更像一個完整的人。

被譽爲“情僧”的蘇曼殊，年方三十五便撒手人間，留給後人的是他傳奇性的悲劇性的一生。我打心底裏喜愛曼殊，雖遁入空門，卻難斬情絲。他的愛想必已經升華為一種大愛，博愛。有了愛，便有了痛。這慘淡的人間，容不下一個盛滿愛的心，只有對它不斷的折磨和摧殘。有了愛，那生命和世界也就注定要醖釀一出傑出的悲劇，“遍山紅葉，盡是離人眼中血"。“三分貞渲，二分痴骨，且還多一尺靈氣。斷雁零鴻，早淒透離憂肝肺，向明山獨參空慧。”

郭沫若的日本妻子郭安娜的慘痛的一生，在一些程度上讓我對文學家郭沫若有些不好的看法。他們的情況略微不同，他們是自由戀愛后而結合的，並不是舊式的父母親指定的婚姻。可郭沫若在捨棄妻兒，逃囘中國投身革命后，雖對妻兒有愧，卻在中國另立家庭，與于力群結合。在這一點上我無法苟同。在度過一切磨難之後，郭安娜只手撫養大四個孩子，然後落根中國。她沒有要名分，沒有要資助，甚至沒有怨恨，一個人默默的生活。這種偉大且有韌性的女性，讓我折服。書中記錄的她的最後的一句話，沉重得讓我落淚，“重要的是要活下去”。

I have dressed up my journal with a new layout also from PixelScripts. This one is supposed to be based on the recent movie LOTR, and the previous template that I've used for the past few weeks is called What's Your Sign. The last template was heavily modded, because I replaced all the images used in the template, however this new one has not been modded yet, maybe in the future.

I like this template, specially the red background pattern. Well for those who read and visit my blog, please let me know what do you think of this new template, so feel free to drop me any comments and suggestions! Thanks!

Browsing CNN after work, and my eyes got caught by this news headline, "Secret Service questions student on drawings"(Link). The story is about a 15-year-old boy's drawing in his asignment at Prosser High School, the controversial drawing brought art teacher's attention, and eventually school decided to bring in the Secret Service to question the student.

The drawing that drew the most notice showed a man in what appeared to be Middle Eastern-style clothing, holding a rifle. He was also holding a stick with an oversize head of the president on it. The student said the head was enlarged because it was intended to be an effigy, Cravens said. The caption called for an end to the war in Iraq.

The background of the student and the details of the event are not provided in the news article, however judging from the presented information I personally feel that bringing in the Secret Service might be going little bit overboard. Furthermore, the fact that the Secret Service actually took the matter seriously and questioned the boy as some kind of national threat is simply shocking and almost ridiculous.

"If this 15-year-old kid in Prosser is perceived as a threat to the president, then we are living in '1984'," Cravens said.

After questioning, the student is left without any charges, however the school did confirm that necessary punishment will be enforced on the student, although the school refuses to comment on exactly what kind of punishment the student will receive. As Ken Schram put it at the end of his article:

So, here's my question: When U.S. forces get finished bringing freedom to the people of Iraq, would it be possible for them to do the same thing for the people of Prosser? I'm pretty sure there's at least one 15 year old over there who'd appreciate it.

My best buddy Tony had an job interview with Nokia on Tuesday, and on Wednesday morning he got the long-waited great news: HE GOT HIRED! I am truly happy for him since he has gone through so much mishaps in the recent past, now finally his life has made a good turn and things are looking better for him. However such event made me to reflect on my future, on my biggest uncertainty.

I do admit that among many of my friends, my life after graduation is relatively smooth and fortunate. I had a full-time job offer right after graduation and also through my current job I quickly secured my stay in U.S. For all these I am deeply grateful, for the Father above is the one who lay my path before me, and so far this path has been easy. Nonetheless, the future is still unpredictable and never certain. Sometime traces of these uncertainties still manage to elicit fear in my heart, chill in my spine, worry in my eyes. But I know what I need to do. I will give the best of me and I will strive for my future and for my stay, the rest I am putting in the hands of my Father, and only through Him I can retain a peaceful mind, a stronger will and finally the courage and strength to go on, for I know that long ago this is the path my dear Father has prepared for me, and best of all He is with me and next to me at all time.

To maintain as super power and the military supremacy, U.S. has definitely done a very good job. This recent article reveals U.S. denied China from future space project cooperation because the fear that such action will eventually accelerate China's pace on the path to become a serious competitor in space.

The Chinese, who launched their first astronaut into space last year, are "shocked" the United States has not welcomed them into the tight-knit community of space-faring nations, a leading U.S. expert said on Tuesday.

Although China recetly has become the third nation to launch a human into space after former Soviet Union and United States, however in my opinion China's space program is still at its infancy. But of course we cannot ignore China is showing a great interest and giving a huge amount of resource into its space program, thus to quicken the pace of becoming a formidable competitior. So I guess U.S. has seen this too, and has chosen to shut the door on China. to Prevent China's participation in the space community.

The Chinese went so far as to build a docking ring onto their Shenzhou spacecraft that would allow it to park at the $95 billion International Space Station, said Johnson-Freese. Their launch complex in Inner Mongolia is on the same parallel as NASA's Kennedy Space Center, which would allow them to share an orbit with the ISS.

In the other hand, it is unfair for China. They have tried so hard and so much, with the hope that U.S. will open the golden door of space community to it, and welcome China with warmth, but at the end it is nothing but a cold senseless denial. So space program is not really space program anymore, research is not science anymore, space exploration is just military mission but wrapped with pretty gift papers. When things fall into politics, nothing can be saved from turning dark, ugly and full of human greed. It is selfish, but at a national level, and such selfishness is one of survival principle for a race. To be strong, to stay strong and prevent others from getting strong. Cooperation is forbidden and not allowed.

That expectation ran into a wall of U.S. suspicion that the Chinese program, which is under military control, could someday pose a threat to the U.S. domination in satellites used for military communications, reconnaissance and tracking.

So after all, everyone has their own hidden agenda, nothing looks what it appear to be, specially in today's politics. I am not gonna judge right or wrong, for neither parties in the story carries a pure motive. But I just want to advice people to dig deeper into the story and maybe you would understand everything better.

Got this one from a friend's email:

George W. Bush , The White House, USA

EDUCATION AND EXPERIENCE:

LAW ENFORCEMENT: I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine, in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pled guilty, paid a fine, and had my driver's license suspended for 30 days. My Texas driving record has been "lost" and is not available.

MILITARY: I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL. I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam.

COLLEGE: I graduated from Yale University with a low C average.

PAST WORK EXPERIENCE: I began my career in the oil business in Midland, Texas, in 1975. I bought an oil company, but couldn't find any oil in Texas. The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock. I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money. With the help of my father and our right-wing friends in the oil industry (including Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected governor of Texas.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS GOVERNOR OF TEXAS: I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies, making Texas the most polluted state in the Union. During my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America. I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money. I set the record for the most executions by any governor in American history. With the help of my brother, the governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President after losing by over 500,000 votes.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS PRESIDENT: I am the first President in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal record. I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of over one billion dollars per week. I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury. I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history I'm
proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any Administration in U.S. history. My "poorest millionaire," Condoleeza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her. I set the record for most campaign fund-raising trips by a U.S. President. I am the all-time U.S. and world record-holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations. My largest lifetime campaign contributor, and one of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy fraud in U.S. History, Enron. My political party used Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. Supreme Court during my election decision. I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution. More time and money was spent investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair Than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history. I presidedover the biggest energy crisis in U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was revealed. I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts (so my friends could still be in business). I appointed more convicted criminals to administration than any President In U.S. history. I've broken more international treaties than any President In U.S. history. I am the first President in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U.S. election). I set the record for fewest number of press conferences of any President since the advent of television. I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one-year period! After taking off the entire month of August, I presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history - September 11, 2001. I garnered the most sympathy for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history. I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest me in public venues (15 million people), shattering the record for protest against any person in the history of mankind. I am the first President in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, pre-emptive attack and the military occupation of a sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, the majority of U.S. citizens, and the world community. I have Cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families -- in war time. In my State of the Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq, then blamed the lies on our British friends. I am the first President in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and security.

RECORDS AND REFERENCES: All records of my tenure as governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed and unavailable for public view. All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my Bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view. All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-President, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review.

PLEASE CONSIDER MY EXPERIENCE WHEN VOTING IN 2004.

我在閲讀綠土地時看到的幾句話：

當基本的經濟需要不再困擾我們的時候，情感和婚姻便成為我們生活中最大的困擾。在這追求“錢途”和自我的年代，人的欲望越來越多，愛情也越來越脆弱，甚至不堪一擊。盡管每個人都渴望完美的愛情，但往往事與愿違，眾多原因導致“快餐式”愛情層出不窮，離婚率也越來越高，在這無比現實的背景下，許多人患上了一種奇怪的病──“愛無能“。如今，“愛無能”已成為一個世界性的話題。可以說，愛無能是面對慘淡情感現實的一聲嘆息，是商業化時代愛情裂變的真實寫照。這樣的結果究竟是人性自我的墮落還是抵抗不了誘惑？

那麽有可能下面這句話就是我的答案：

“也許有一天，我們突然發現，自己所愛的原本就是一個幻像中的人，我們想愛的其實只是夢里自我的虛無。”

Pouring myself onto paper seems to be the only solution to my desperate situation. Writing is now my only method to ease this ceaseless internal tribulation. Everyday, since the first ray of sunlight till last blood of dusk, I have been haunted by this loneliness, the desire of to be loved and to give love troubles me everyday. Right now, again I found myself confined in this hole, dark and chilling. Alone, I must fight this war, a war that involves my sole existence, a war that takes no physical form, but however I feel its existence and its intensity. Sometimes I just want to surrender, but I found no white flag.

"I must go on!" I tell myself everyday, and everytime I feel completely suffocated by the shadow of loneliness. Sometimes I wander without aim in this beautiful city. Wandering like a homeless dog, wandering like blind old man. Often I desire death, because in death everything comes to rest, sadness or happiness, trouble or achievements, in death they become voiceless and mute, and they weigh less than a feather.

So I write ... writing words to express the indescribable, dumping heart-felt emotions into Roman letters, hoping there is another being out there, somewhere, that undestands all these, and the rest that have not yet transformed into readable form.

I am shocked, and then disppointed. I've always viewed U.S. military as the most humane troop in the world, the only troop that strictly enforces the Geneva POW Convention, and treat their prisoners of war humanely and with dignity. But these pictures have shattered my belief. The images in these pictures are disgusting, brutal and inhumane; they degrade the U.S. army to a level no better than a bunch organized savages. I hope that the administration investigates these incidents thoroughly, and give these individuals (for they are not good enough to be called soldiers) the righteous punishment, in order to restore U.S. army's reputation.

One of the images shows a hooded and naked prisoner standing on a box with wires attached to his genitals.

Shocking images available at The Memory Hole.

Another image shows naked prisoners being forced to simulate sex acts while in another, a female soldier simulates holding a gun and pointing at a naked Iraqi's genitals.

Update: I guess it is like poke at bee's nest, now it is British Army.

The photographs, obtained by the Daily Mirror newspaper, show a suspected thief being beaten and urinated on.